the earliest memory you have:
i don't know which was earlier - the glimpse i have of me sitting in my high chair with my family at the dinner table, or the glimpse of my on my back, having just fallen out of my crib and broken my collar bone (i didn't feel like napping, apparently)

the first time you went to school:
i can't remember at very first. but i remember in kindergarten, we played house. whoever got there earliest got to be the "mom" - distinguished by the yellow apron found in the play kitchen. tara lived across the street from the school, so she was always there first. but one day i had to go in at like 8:30 (maybe my mom had an appointment or something), and i got the apron. tara yelled at me and cried until her mom had to come get her, cause i wouldn't let her have the apron. yep, they were good times.

the first time you learned something new (special):
i was really proud of my self when i learned three things, and i can't remember which came first and last. all of these things i pouted about for a while, cause i said i would never be able to do them: tie my shoes, ride my bike, and jump rope. i am proud to say i can still do all of these things, but because i'm lazy i rarely do.

the first time you fell in love:
not quite sure i've been in love yet.

the first time you went on a date: "ahem".... [uncomfortable pause as i try to come up with something funny to lighten my agony at not being attractive to anyone.] truth be told, i technically was on a date in grade 7... but... uhh... let's not go there.

the first time you were scolded:
i can't remember. i do remember my dad yelling at my once for saying damn. i'm still kind of grudgy about that, cause i had no idea it was a bad word (i was like 6) and it was in a proclaimer's song - in a tape he had given me.

the first time you kept a secret from your parents:
well i never told them all the nights i didn't brush my teeth! haha... i think it was probably sometime when tiana and i did something stupid and i didn't want to tell them.

your first part-time job:
my only part time job: "administrative assistant" (i.e. slave, haha) @ sylvan learning centre

how did you spend your first earnings?:
my very first paycheck, i treated my parents to dinner and bought myself a pair of damn cool shoes. oh man, they're cool.

the first time you bought clothes/accessories for yourself:
the first time i really actually bought something for myself with money that i had earned, it was the shoes (oh... so cool). before that, i'm sure i had gotten allowance and had bought earrings, or something, but i can't really remember.

the first time you put on makeup:
besides for halloween, it was probably when i started to get zits, in like grade 6, when i started using cover-up. i wore a brownish eye shadow frequently, also, for a couple years, cause it made me feel mature, or something. i was stupid.

the first time you changed the color of your hair:
that would be when i was 10, and i had the lightest colour of hair on my soccer team so they used blue bingo dabber - a LOT of blue bingo dabber - all over my hair. took days to come out. i've never done anything more permanent than that.

what kind of place did you first live in by yourself:
my sanctuary, my hiding, my cell. (my room)

the first time you cooked:
the first time i made a full-fledged meal by myself - nothing packaged, and no sandwiches, would have been just last year - i cooked chicken, sauce, mushrooms, rice... oh man. i called it chicken à la heather, and it was the best damn thing i've ever tasted.

the first time you felt kindness:
i can't remember. i honestly can't think of anything right now, sorry.

the first time you felt like committing suicide:
probably in grade 8. that was a really bad year.

the first time you experienced bereavement:
(dictionary says.... damage).. umm.. i felt prett bereaved (wow... i'm so impressed with me) when i was in scotland and i got the chicken pox. now i feel even worse because i realize i must have made the whole vacation a living hell for my whole family. not only that, but i gave the pox to my two older sisters, and the airport wouldn't let us on the plane in case it was some horrible virus or something. i think we had to wait a couple days before we saw a doctor who gave us a note saying we were allowed to go back to our own country.

the first time you fought with someone:
again with tara and the apron. but for fun and variety, let's think of something new. i remember in grade 2, chris mann stole my pencil crayons and i told my teacher, and she told me i was wrong because chris would never do something like that (i still remember seeing them poking out of his desk). i also remember in grade 5 when jade accused me of punching her in the face. i remember many, many fights with tiana... usually about the colour of freezies to eat or something frivilous like that.

the first time you drank alcohol:
haha. at special holidays, my whole family drinks wine. of course, you don't just hand wine to a five year old, but my parents wanted me to feel included so they poured a tiny amount of wine into a glass and then filled it the rest of the way with ginerale. it was tasty, and it looked like wine, so i was happy. later on, i said something silly (as is the nature of five year olds) and they all teased me about being drunk. at that point, our next door neighbour was the minister at a local church, and i proceeded to tell his wife that i was, in fact, drunk. my sister, who baby sat her kids, had to do a LOT of explaining... oh man. she still resents me.

the first time you tried smoking:
never have, never will.

the first time you felt glad you were born:
i can't remember. so i'll tell you the last time i felt glad i was born. there were actually two nights, really close to each other, close to the summer. one night, julie shannon and i went down to canatara, and we drove down to just where the lake meets the river, and we just stood, and watched, and were content to be watching, even though there was nothing at all happeing but the thoughts in our heads. it was peaceful. the other time i was at julies, and we were waiting outside for one of her parents to give me a ride home. i noticed how clear the sky was, so i lay down on her driveway, underneath her giant tree, and just looked up at them for the longest time.

the first time you felt like you had aged:
every time i think of the day before, i think i've aged. not necessarily because i'm bigger, or smarter. but because i realize how differently i would have done something i did the day before. it's weird, and it's been that way since i was really little. i guess the first time i remember when i was little actually thinking "wow, i'm old" (or something to that degree) would have been probably going into grade 1. i seriously was impressed with myself cause i had finally reached a number, instead of a letter.

-things are stupid. always.

- my arm hurts, my butt hurts, i have a giant test, and i can't study because i'm incompetant. i don't / won't have enough money to go to university, but in order to get enough money, i'd have to partially sacrifice the marks that would guarantee my entrance to university. thomas knows things about me that i don't even know, and every day, it seems like, i find something inside of me that he said was there. i feel so... exposed.

- current read: the outlander. very scottish. lots of sex. slightly lame-but-interesting idea of time travel. what else could someone want in a book?

-who says curling's not a contact sport?

-evidence:
1) vicky and i bonked heads, thereby coming in contact with each other
2) my knee slammed the ice at a ferocious velocity, thereby coming in contact with the frozen water
3) i threatened justin with making curling a contact sport if he didn't zip his lip - and i would have followed through.

- i believe that's point and game. i rule.

- my burner sucks, so i sent ALL my songs to vicky and made him make me a cd. he rocks. i was going to give him thank you cookies, but he said he'd rather i was just nice instead. who likes nice over cookies?

- oh... yeah and rage! i'm nice... sometimes.... when i'm alone... and not kicking dogs, setting fire to houses, or throwing babies...

i just got a splinter in my mouth from eating a popsicle.

the world is out to get me.

- haha it's been a while since i went on my online test rampage last weekend. - so maddie and i went to see the matrix revolutions this afternoon

- yeah, i paid 8.75 to be REALLY confused. i'd rather just sit through physics class and keep my money, thanks. i mean... it was pretty good/intense until five minutes from the end. it was probably still pretty good/intense five minutes from the end on, but i'm not sure. to me it was "blah blah blah blah death blah blah choice blah love blah blah blah something about a black cat? blah blah sun" (and yes - i did just give away the whole movie, cause if you're as stupid as me that's about all you'll get from it, too).

- that's all, really. i'm not interesting. i'm sad, though, apparently (thanks maddie).

- ooh ooh... leafs are playing san josé! that means alyn mccauley! he's my spanish lover! (by spanish, i mean canadian. by lover, i mean favourite hockey player)

- it's heather's first cold of the year... we all know what that means: she's grumpier than usual!

- oh man... i slept in til 2:00 this afternoon. i mean this was a crazy week and all, but 14 hours of sleep should definitely make up for it. but it didn't, as i'm still tired. my throat was sore when i woke up, so i got up to get some juice, and i would have gone back to bed (i was seriously still tired), but my mother cornered me and forced me to shower and put on clothes instead.

- for the optomists: i convinced my dad to get me popsicles. they're tasty.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 babies
02 pain
03 failure

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 homer simpson
02 red foreman
03 me

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 winning
o2 popcorn
03 music

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 why people still support george bush
02 why life can't be fair
03 people

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 popcorn
02 coke
03 chemistry homework

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 of course i did my homework
02 i injured my (insert choice body part here) by (insert random activity that shouldn't cause injury)
03 the leafs will start winning soon

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 watching hockey
02 talking to vicky
03 wishing i was doing something interesting

THREE MEMORIES FROM WHEN I WAS A CHILD:
01 mega man x
02 being super heather (cape and all)
03 stupid things tiana and i did together

THREE THINGS I REMEMBER LISTENING TO WHEN I WAS A CHILD:
01 the beatles
02 the proclaimers
03 u2

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 meet someone who loves me
02 learn how to dance
03 change the world

THREE THINGS I CAN DO WELL:
01 school
02 make people mad at me
03 keep secrets

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 grumpy
02 mean
03 competitive

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:
01 unpleasant
02 stubby
03 blonde

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 swear in front of my parents
02 lie... if it's not necessary
03 listen to music without singing along

THREE THINGS I THINK EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 counting crows
02 their hearts
03 mike meyers

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 me
02 peer pressure
03 george bush

THREE OF MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 chicken
02 mushrooms
03 ice cream

THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 how to play guitar
02 at least three new languages
03 the meaning of life

THREE BEVERAGES I DRINK REGULARLY:
01 coke
02 juice
03 milk

THREE SHOWS I WATCHED WHEN I WAS A KID:
01 sesame street
02 ghost writer
03 bobby's world

- if you are having problems staying alert, help may be on its way. recent studies (conducted by one person - on herself) show that lack of sleep (approx. 3 hours) may result in a vivacious and snazzy next day.

- caution - although rare, side effects may include: nausea, headache, indigestion, vomiting, sinus pain, large bumps in random places, time spans of lack of sleep catching up on you, spasms, strong desire for caffeine, hunger pangs, bladder problems, lapses of insanity, and possible heart attack.

- lack of sleep isn't right for you if you... are pregnant, nursing, have heart conditions, have chronic bladder problems, have the flu, have red, blonde, brown, or black hair, are under twelve feet tall, or are in any way NORMAL.